Note to self: no caffeine after 7PM

Ugh, sitting here, can't sleep, have to be on a plane tomorrow morning. Why did the Coke seem like such a good idea again?

I think that besides the caffeine coursing through my veins, I'm a little nervous about leaving Son for this long. Very nervous. I was gone for a few hours this afternoon, and I couldn't believe how much I missed him. What am I going to do when it is a few days??

Husband is beginning to get exactly how much work Son can be. He (Son) is currently is full toddler mode-including temper tantrums-and Husband doesn't quite get it that this is NORMAL. They both are going to have a significant learning curve here. I know that they'll be fine. Really. But he's my baby. And this is Mommy's first time away from home. Husband has admitted that he is nervous about the entire thing. He hates it when I'm gone period, but this will be even worse.

Did I mention that we're also missing our anniversay for the second year in a row? Ugh. We probably should have tried to do something for it this weekend, but I have to sadly admit that neither one of us thought of it. How messed up is that? I'm going to order some flowers for Husband so he'll have something on Tuesday. I've already thought up the note to go with it (what else to do when you're laying there completely awake?) He already has given me my gift, an opal pendant, so I'm not expecting anything else. So this year we are 0-2 when it comes to me; he was gone on my birthday, and now I'm gone on our anniversary.

I guess you could say that our gift to each other is the appointment with our lovely RE on the 30th. Another thing to keep my mind occupied when it is supposed to be sleeping. I have a good feeling that we will need it, since all of the things that I described in my last post have pretty much dissapated. I'm still going to test tomorrow morning, but it will only be to erradicate that little spectre of hope that had been lurking in the corner of my mind.

Well, gonna go and play with the kittens.